Friday 30 March 2012

That Friday feeling!

Well, yesterday was a bit of a slow moving day, but I did feel better in the afternoon having been to feed the ducks in the park with Sarah!


Sarah made us a really yummy butternut squash risotto for dinner - I've still got 2 portions to go, having had some for lunch today!! I must say that I am loving the recipes we've tried so far from the Innocent Hungry cookbook!! I think Sarah is getting a bit bored of preparing butternut squash though - I promise that the next recipe we try will involve something easier sis!! Thanks to the O'Brien's for the cookbook though!! I recommend it highly!


Sarah went home last night so I have been flying solo today. I've not done a lot, but managed a hour and a half walking, albeit slowly, around the park with my audiobook - I'm up to chapter 50 something now and the narrator is not really getting any better at the women's voices!! It is a good way of passing time though and I want to listen to some more. I think I will have to wait until Sunday to hear the next bit though as tomorrow is an afternoon of culture, with a trip to the theatre to see 39 Steps. I am really looking forward to this. 


This afternoon, after my walk, I found my latest favourite snack - G.H. Cretors Popped Corn!! It is a yummy mix of slightly sweet and slightly salted! I managed not to eat the whole bag whilst watching The Next Three Days, although I cannot guarantee it will not be all gone by the end of the weekend! At least with my risotto, fruit and avocado bagel I think I have covered my 5 a day anyway!! ;-)


So anyway, I watched The Next Three Days this afternoon. I enjoyed it and thought it was a good thriller. Much more my cup of tea than Cowboys and Aliens, which looking back I think I would have liked better if there had been a bit more comedy in it. Anyway, I am now intrigued as to what Love Film will send me next from my list - I guess I'll have to wait until next week to find out! I may have to choose something from my DVD collection to get through the weekend and to have an excuse to finish my pop corn (not that I need one!!). 


Anyway folks have a good weekend and remember to wrap up here in Blighty as I hear that the heating's being turned off and we are heading back to more seasonal temperatures!! Oh well, as long as the summer is a good one!! I might be able to have some ice-cream by then!! :-) 


xxxxx

Thursday 29 March 2012

Cowboys and Aliens

Just watched Cowboys and Aliens. Not sure what I thought of it as this is not the genre of film I'd normally watch. Did appreciate a bit of Daniel Craig though (now where's my Casino Royal DVD!!)

Next from my Love film list is The Next Three Days. Anyone seen it??

Xxxx
Damn this lack of energy!!! Want to be out playing in the park but having a shower has completely zonked me out!!! Grrrrr

Please can someone arrange for the nice weather to stay next week as I'll have more energy then (hopefully)!!!??

Thats all for now folks!!

Xxxx zzzzzzzzz

Tuesday 27 March 2012

How much??!!

I started chemo cycle 3 yesterday but alas no new drug. It turns out that the funding hadn't come through in time from the central government Cancer Fund in time for the pharmacy to make up the drug. When we got home, Sarah looked up it turns out that my treatment with it will cost around £15,000!!!! I can't really blame them for waiting for the cheque to clear!!! Apart from the lack of new drug, all went well and I got to have some lovely catch up chats with my chemo nurses Bridget and Rachael. I also learnt some more about statistics whilst helping Sarah with her exam revision. 


Today I managed a slow walk up the high street in the sunshine to do some shopping - we got yummy nachos for dinner! I am loving the mild and sunny weather, but if we could turn off the wind that would really be great as it is not helping my skin sensitivity (it blows my clothes against my skin which then feel like sand-paper) and my eye lid spasms (where my eye lids open and close so frequently it makes it hard to see)!!


Anyway, it's off back to the hospital tomorrow afternoon to get my condom bottle number 3 removed. 


Ta ta for now


xxxx

Sunday 25 March 2012

WOW!!! What a week!!

Well, it has been one heck of a week! 

Last weekend Mum and Dad came up and we enjoyed a weekend of sport - three rugby matches and the Grand Prix highlights! (Well, Dad and I watched the sport, Mum is not such a fan). I gave Mum a great Mother's Day present too - I let her fuss over me!! ;-)

On Monday the three of us took our first visit down to the Royal Surrey Hospital in Guildford to meet with the liver specialist who is going to operate on me. After a thankfully brief game of sardines on the train to Clapham Junction, we then were at the mercy of the South-west Trains announcer who was a little confused to say the least as to which train was next on platform 9! The info screens on the platform itself were of no use either. We even ended up getting on the train to Basingstoke having been told it was the train to Guildford (it wasn't). Thankfully the train guard was on the ball and announced that it wasn't the train to Guildford before it had a chance to leave the platform so off we hopped again! We did eventually get the right train and we were off. Generally, the train seems to be a good way to get to Guildford, even if South-west Trains couldn't work out which train was coming into the platform next!! 

My surgeon and clinical nurse specialist both seem really nice and sounded positive that the surgery will be straightforward. It is provisionally booked in for the first week in July. This means that I can go and sun myself in Spain for a week in June as planned - Gareth, you are still booked in for butler duties I hope!!?? The surgery will start off 'key-hole' so that the surgeon can have a good look around my abdomen to make sure that there is nothing else nasty going on that hasn't been picked up on the scans (I am due to have an MRI after the chemo to see what the liver tumour has done in response to the drugs). The surgeon will then open me up and I could have a third to a half of my liver removed. If all goes smoothly in the operation, I will have maybe up to a week in hospital (with up to two days on intensive care so that I can be closely monitored). I may be out in less than a week though as they like to get people up and about quickly and away from hospital food!!! :-) All in all, the surgeon didn't really tell me anything that I wasn't expecting. I was shocked though to learn that the liver can 'regrow' in 6-8 weeks!!! I knew before that it can 'regrow' but didn't realise it was so quick!! My surgeon explained it to me that if you imagine that the liver is like a tree, then you cut off a branch. The branch itself doesn't regrow but more leaves grow on the other branches. I thought that was quite a good analogy! 

After finishing up at the hospital - less than an hour, with the appointment starting fairly on time - Mum, Dad and I headed into the shopping area of Guildford. Now I tell you, it's a good thing that I am going to be laid up in a hospital bed when I am in Guildford, as there are some very nice shops there and my credit card could have ended up having a serious workout. Luckily with Mum and Dad with me, I was restrained this time and only bought a few things, including some havianas from TK Maxx for less than half RRP! A girl can never have too many flip flops!! After some lunch, we headed back home on the train (less confusion this time on the part of South-west Trains thankfully). All in all a successful day out! 

Wednesday was the day that I added another mile to the clock! I guess now I am technically in my mid-thirties! Eek! To help me celebrate, my old uni house-mate came down from the Lake District for a few days - thank you so much Wayne! He arrived in time to go to a great French cafe for a steak and chips baguette (I should be on commission for the number of people that I have taken there!). A walk in the park followed, taking advantage of the lovely sunshine we have been having!! My birthday evening was spent laughing my way through The Hangover whilst enjoying some sparkling elderflower (Wayne was more manly with a beer!). 

Thursday was steak and chips baguette number two!! We met with Bren, Claire, Aisling and Lindsay for lunch - thanks for coming down guys - it was great to catch up! Luckily for Wayne, we didn't talk weather the whole time!! I think the waitress was a bit surprised that we all wanted to have the same thing, but the reputation of this baguette preceded it and thankfully I don't think it was a disappointment! I am going to have to avoid the cafe for a few days now though! :-) After lunch it was time to introduce Wayne to the joys of the chemotherapy day unit at the hospital, as I needed to have some bloods taken and my PICC line flushed and redressed. Thankfully it all happened without incident or too long a wait. 

Friday was handover day as Wayne headed back up north and Mum and Dad returned ready for oncology clinic in the afternoon. Dad and I headed to the hospital to find that, surprise surprise, we had a wait! It turned to be an hour wait for a 10 minute appointment!! We found out in the appointment that I am suitable to have a new treatment added to my chemo to try and increase the chance of me making a full recovery! It is a biological drug (Cetuximab) that stops the cancer cells dividing and therefore hopefully stops the cancer growing. I am having this added to my chemo from tomorrow so fingers crossed it will do its job. Having had my PICC line dressing changed (it had fallen off earlier in the day), after a 30 minute wait on the chemo day unit, Dad and I headed for the bus. We got a few hundred metres from the bus stop we got on at and the bus broke down whilst queuing at traffic lights!! We had to walk to the next stop to pick up the next bus!! Thankfully it was not too long a wait and we got home without further incident.

Yesterday I thought was going to be spent celebrating my birthday and Mum's birthday (next week) with my family. It turns out that everyone I know had a different plan for me. I turned up at the restaurant with Mum, Dad and Sarah to find 17 of my friends gathered there for a surprise birthday lunch!! I was in total shock and it was a fantastic surprise - thank you so much for organising it Jo and Lucy!! I am not sure I am speaking to any of you again though for being so sneaky!! ;-) It was fantastic to see everyone and I had a wonderful time! Thanks so much to everyone that came, and especially Liz and family and Alice who travelled so far to celebrate with me!! We had a lovely lunch and afternoon and it was great to see every stage of my life represented. I am so grateful to all my friends and family for all there love and support through everything and lovely to have fun and not just talk about cancer!! I didn't have a camera with me but Jo turned into the official photographer and so I will try to post some pics from her on here soon. I especially want you to see the fab cake that my sis decorated with weather symbols for me!! Thank you all for making my birthday extra special this year!! 

So I think that about covers everything this week, and so that's me a third of the way through this chemo treatment phase - cycle 3 starts tomorrow afternoon!!

One final thought - why is it that the grey hairs don't fall out - only the brown ones??!! 

Thanks everyone who has made this a brilliant week!

xxxxx

Friday 16 March 2012

Pounding the streets

Well folks, I've finally started getting on with trying to stave off the effects of the steroids and am hitting the streets for my walks. On Tuesday, Sarah and I spent two hours walking around the common. It was slow progress, with me walking about half the speed of normal, but it was good to get out in the sunshine and fresh air. Sarah enjoyed messing around on some of the children's play equipment (I am still negotiating the right to publish some lovely photographic evidence of this!) and we managed to avoid getting attacked by some odd looking ducks that seemed to be put out that we hadn't taken any bread! 


Wednesday was the day to remove my second condom bottle. This time we changed tactics and instead of waiting around all day for a district nurse to arrange to come in the evening and then arrive 2 hours after they said they would, we headed back to the hospital and my lovely chemo nurses sorted me out in less than an hour. All this meant that I was able to get out of the house for a spot of lunch with Sarah, her friend Jane and Jane's baby girl Alex. Another cute baby and she won some extra brownie points by pooping so much that it came out of her nappy onto Sarah!! Ha ha ha! Once she (Alex) had been freshened up with a new nappy and baby grow I had a little cuddle, giving me the chance to try to remember the words to nursery rhymes! I think I remembered most of the words and may well have made some up too!! 


After dispatching Sarah back up north first thing yesterday, I have been flying solo the last couple of days. Yesterday I made it for an hours walk around the shops and to the Post Office - remember folks, it is Mothers Day this weekend - to post a pressie to Granny from Sarah and I. Apparently it has arrived already - thanks Royal Mail! 


Yesterday evening ended up with me watching the DVD of Kris Carr's Crazy Sexy Cancer. Kris is a cancer survivor in the US who has written books and made a documentary of her cancer adveenture. I thinks she is a very inspiring woman who is living with her tumours and getting on with life. I have found her books and the DVD very informative, often humorous and offering a great perspective on how to not let cancer take over your life. After watching the DVD, I made the possible mistake of hitting the internet again and spent a few ££!! Oops! I am just grateful that I have porters to accept my parcels rather than having to traipse down to the sorting office. One of the things that I ordered was this cute t-shirt (a semi-colon to cover the scar from my sub-total colectomy)!


http://www.cafepress.co.uk/+semicolon_organic_womens_fitted_tshirt_dark,391709986

And so what have I managed to achieve today? Well, I have had another walk on the common and today managed an hour and a half - I covered much the same ground as Tuesday and so my pace must have picked up a bit. I did find Sarah another playground to mess around on though!! So there may be another embarrassing photo op in a week or so when she is next down for baby-sitting / house elf duties! ;-)


When I got back from my walk, having listened to my audible book - I think I got through 22 chapters of Private by James Patterson - I made the mistake of sitting down on the sofa so two hours latter I woke up!! It made me feel a bit grotty so I guess I am not yet at the chemo phase of needing an afternoon sleep yet! Although energy levels are low, I think there is a little way to go before the need for a siesta kicks in. Hopefully I wont get that far for a few cycles yet - I think it was beyond the half way stage last time around that the need kicked in. 


Anyway, I am now gearing up for a weekend of sport and parents! Tomorrow we get to see if the new look England rugby team can hold off the Irish and if the Welsh can win another grand-slam! We also get to see what the Beeb can do with only having highlights of the Formula 1. I hope that they do a good job of it as I have got a number of hours set aside this year with the need for something to do! ;-) It's all a good thing that I am an armchair sports fan!!! 


Next week looks like it could be a busy one - on Monday we get to have our first venture to the Royal Surrey Hospital in Guildford to meet with my liver specialist. Hopefully he will be able to give us a bit on an idea of what surgery will be needed and the timeline for it all. I am expecting that I will be set back to square one with having abdominal surgery again - and just when I was staring to build on my six-pack!! ;-) I wonder if I can persuade this surgeon to include a free tummy tuck and liposuction this time. Last time, they wouldn't agree as I was having a three-for-one on body part removal as it was (most of my colon, an ovarian cyst and some fibroids)!!! After Monday's appointment I am having a fun few days with an old uni friend coming down to help me celebrate getting through another birthday on chemo! Next year, the big 35 will NOT be spent in this situation and I WILL be celebrating with the good bubbles rather than lemonade or Perrier water! The end of the week will then be spent going to and from the hospital again for a blood test and PICC line flush on Thursday and my fortnightly oncology clinic appointment on Friday, with Mum and Dad no doubt coming back for that. By the end of the week, my poor parents will have certainly clocked up the motorway miles!! 


Anyway folks, there is just time for me to catch up on some US cop drama - NCIS and The Mentalist - before bed!


Take care everyone and happy mothers day to all you mums out there!!!!


xxxxxx

Monday 12 March 2012

I feel the need ... The need for speed!!

Well, it's a great way to finish off chemo infusion day ... Sarah and I are watching our favourite movie on Film 4. Can you guess what it is?!?

Today went well - infusion went in and I'm now hooked up to condom bottle 2! We only had to wait an hr for treatment to start, so that's a marked improvement on last time. This time the wait was down to a deep clean of the pharmacy meaning that they were running behind on making up the chemo drugs to my specific prescription. Hopefully then we'll be able to start around about my appointment time next time!!

I'm suffering from cold sensitivity a bit again and my skin is a bit sensitive to touch. Still both relatively mild compared with last years chemo so all in all, thumbs up!! :-). Still loving the lack of needles and poking around for a vein that my PICC line provides!

Yesterday I went to a friend's little boy's 1st birthday party - happy birthday Oliver!! It was great fun and lovely to catch up with everyone. Parents have my utmost admiration for coping with kids though. I don't know how you all do it, I can barely sort myself out at the best of times let alone sort out little peeps too!!!

I've finally finished playing phone tag with the cancer nurse specialist at The Royal Surrey Hospital where I will be going for my liver surgery. We've been exchanging phone messages for a week now - not helped by my inability to recall my mobile phone number correctly - chemo brain!! Anyway, she thinks that it's best to wait until after the chemo to have an MRI so we can see how the tumour has reacted to the chemo. Logical when you think about it!

Anyway, I've not managed to get up to any mischief the last few days so I'll sign off now.

One last quote "Slider, you stink!" answers on a postcard please!!

Xxxx

Saturday 10 March 2012

24 hrs of freedom

Mum and Dad have just left so I now have 24 hrs flying solo until Sarah arrives tomorrow for the start of cycle 2. What mischief can get up to!!??!!?? ;-)

I went to yoga this morning and really enjoyed the class. It's been two weeks since I last did any yoga and I could tell. The sofa slumping has got to stop and I am going to try to incorporate more yoga, even if it's just a few stretches a day.

Yesterday's check up with my oncologist went well. All my blood tests came back fine and she was happy with how I'm going in terms of side effects. Therefore we are all go for cycle 2 starting on Monday afternoon.

I'm now catching up on the highlights of the swimming trails and then it's the rugby double header (must not sit on the sofa all day!!).

Have a great weekend everyone

Xxxx

Friday 9 March 2012

So, what has been going on then?

Well, after crashing five times whilst trying to buy some bits and bobs from Amazon (presents for others not for me this time) I've given up on my laptop!! It's lucky it's not been jumped on and thrown out of the window!! Stupid thing! I am beginning to think that if I am not going to go bonkers over the next few months with it I am going to have to invest in a new laptop. So folks, I would appreciate some recommendations please? I mainly use the laptop for the internet as well as iTunes and a bit of photo editing (photo storage is now all on a separate hard drive). I don't do gaming but will need some MS word and excel to do a few things every now and then. Think that's about it. I've had my current laptop about 6 yrs so specs are pretty old. Thanks in advance peeps!!

Ok, while we're on a roll with requests for help, I also want to get a scented candle / candles for some relaxation / meditation mood setting. I don't want anything too overpowering as my flat is only small. I tend to like citrusy scents, but anything to set me on the right road would be good, so any tips?

Right, I think that concludes this evenings request slot, although any books, DVDs or tv box sets that can be recommended, that's always great!! Thanks a million!!

Anyway, what have I been up to over the last few days, apart from having a tantrum at my computer?! Well, all in all it's been fairly uneventful. I went back to mum and dad's last Friday and as they've been reading this, they had their eye on me (hello Mum and Dad), so there were no misadventures. I didn't manage to get my walk in everyday - rain and rugby conspired against me on Sunday - but Dad and I did about a mile on Saturday to see the ducks at the end of the lane (luckily for the ducks, there was a little girl already feeding them as we'd not taken any bread!!). Mum and I did a lap of the park another day, and I guess that was nearly a mile.

The highlight of my time back home was having my old (as in known her a long time, not as in she's old - she's younger than me) friend Jane come over to see me, along with her mum and her three month old son. Oscar is such a little cutey!!! He was happy to give me a cuddle (it has been known for babies to take one look at me and burst into tears) and then we must have worn him out as he had a little power nap!!! I think mum was getting ideas, but you'll have to wait a while on that score I think mum!! Thanks Jane, Doreen and Oscar for coming to see me and hopefully I'll see you all again soon!!

So what else did I do?? Oh yes, I had a lovely shopping trip to Morrisons!! Now normally before I leave home to come back to London I do a bit of a shop in the supermarket as they are big out of town jobs so have more stuff than you can get in the high street versions in London. Also, morrisons had just re-opened with a huge new green grocery section so I was planning on stocking my fridge with lovely fresh organic fruit and veg (am trying to go more organic now and reduce the chemicals my body receives - its getting enough at the moment with the cytotoxic chemo drugs!!). Anyway, it seems morrisons are not great stockists of organic produce!! I couldn't believe it, but I think there were only about a dozen different fruits and veggies that were organic!! Now I guess you can probably pick up more organic stuff at the various farm shops but it really amazed me! I couldn't find any organic meat either. All in all morrisons - very poor show!! It makes me wonder if we really are more spoiled with the availability of this stuff in London? Is it that with having organic food shops like Whole Foods and As Nature Intended the supermarkets around London stock more organic products than elsewhere in the country as a way of competing? Hummm

I came back to the big smoke last night to find I've finally got an appointment to see the liver specialist in Guildford for a week Monday. I also had a message from the nurse specialist in guildford wanting to arrange for an MRI to be done, ideally before seeing the specialist! Of course, when I tried to return her call, I was told she's not at work til Monday! Typical! Don't really know why she couldn't have called my mobile if they needed to get things done so quickly!! Oh well, I guess it's saving the NHS ££ if they don't call mobiles!! Hopefully we'll be able to make contact on Monday and we'll get this next ball rolling too!!

I had to pop to the hospital this morning for a blood test. I took mum with me, which was a bit of a gamble as we don't tend to come out of visits to the hospital on our own without some eventfully happenings!! The first time was when they found the tumour in my bowel so I guess nothing could beat that! Last time though was the infamous scan day of my first chemo adventure, which involved hospital gowns and firemen - I'm sure you all have heard the story!! Anyway, we managed to escape the hospital without much incident today, although it turns out you can rip skin off with a dressing and then it stings like f**k when the line entry site is cleaned with an alcohol swab!!! Oh well, another wound to add to the gorgeous bruise I've got going on still!!

Did I say that my trip home was uneventful? Well, it turns out that the lovely London Borough of Hammersmith and Fulham felt that I needed a little photographic reminder of our drive down last Friday afternoon and kindly asked for some ££ in return!!! I finally fell foul of the traffic in front of me stopping just in time for me to be stuck with the back of my car still in a box junction!! Grrr. I guess I'm lucky that it's the first time I've been caught though after 10 yrs living in London.

Well, it's clinic day tomorrow so the Vince family entourage will be hopefully not passing too many hours in the waiting room for my appointment with the oncology registrar - hope they've read through my notes, as I normally see my wonderful consultant!! So far so not too bad - the sensitivity to the cold only lasted a few days last week and the nausea not much longer. I was shocked at how my energy just drained away as the drugs went in but this week my energy levels have picked up again. I'm even hoping to do a yoga class on Saturday morning, although I'm not ruling out starting the meditation phase a bit earlier than the rest of the class!! ;-)

Anyway folks, if there's anyone there who's not fallen asleep with these ramblings, thanks for reading!!

Take care y'all!!

Xxxx

Sunday 4 March 2012

Enjoying some TLC

I've managed to avoid further misadventure over the last couple of days and have come back to my folks for a few days of TLC and mum fussing! ;-) I'm not sure the cat appreciated having to give up her bed though!!

We spent some time yesterday going through old slides and photos that mum's recently found again - got to love those seventies fashions and eighties matching knits!! A question to ponder: whatever happened to all those home knitting machines??!?

Xxxx

Thursday 1 March 2012

I swear, you could not make it up!!

Well, I've had a lovely day enjoying the mild weather and sunshine whilst catching up with Nikki this morning and Lucy this afternoon - thanks girls!! Anyway, in true Rach fashion, I of course could not get through the day incident free!! Having met Lucy this afternoon, we decided to enjoy our cups of tea on the raised decking outside the coffee shop in the sunshine. Next thing we know, I'm adding more bruises by tipping the back legs of the chair off the edge of the decking and I'm legs akimbo straddling the bank of the chair as it tipped over the not very effective retaining wall!!! Poor Lucy nearly came too! Thankfully there is no photographic evidence, although I'm not sure the CCTV monitors wouldn't have had a laugh at our expense!

I should come with a health warning!!

Xxxx

Cycle one done!!

Well folks, it's official, I've finished cycle one of this chemo adventure!! Yay!!

The nurse eventually came at 9 last night to disconnect my condom bottle, flush my PICC line and clean the entry site. Thankfully it all went smoothly and everything is fine. It means now that I've finished the chemo drugs for this cycle (luckily the anti nausea drugs continue for another day as Sarah has eaten all the ginger nuts!! Should explain - last time round Sarah munched her way through a few ginger nuts to help with me not feeling sick - or that was her excuse anyway!!)

I now have a week before I have to be back at the hospital for a blood test and check up before starting my 2nd cycle a week Monday.

One observation from today so far ... Don't try to shave your arm pits with a new razor when you have cling film around your arm pit to try and keep your PICC line site dry!!! Result = one blunt new razor!! Doh!

Hopefully I won't get up to too much mischief today - am going to enjoy the sun and mild weather by meeting up with some friends.

Have a good day everyone!!

Xxx